I don’t want to go

08Jun11

It’s been a while since I blogged.

I just need to get this off my head. I don’t want to leave and work overseas! I don’t want to leave my friends behind, my boyfriend, my mom and sister. T^T

I want to stay here. It may be hard earning money here but at least I get to be with my loved ones. I believe in challenging myself, and I know that grabbing the opportunity overseas would be a great chance to actually put my abilities to the test. I may be ready technically speaking, or in terms of being prepared to be trained and actually do the job. But, emotionally speaking, I don’t think I’m prepared to be living away from the people close to my heart, from the people whom I gather strength and inspiration from. I don’t know if I can be strong, I know I’ll survive but it scares me a lot that I’ll lose you just because we would lose communication… or you would lose interest in me?… or you’d feel weak and can’t seem to take any more of the distance between us?… or the things we can’t do because we’re far away from each other?… all these questions constantly bother me.

We have to be strong. If we want to make it, we will. I know we can.