stumbled upon

02Oct09

while browsing some of my friends’ tumblr accounts i read in one of the posts: the easiest way to lose something… is to want it too badly

it left me thinking for a minute or so. the idea keeps on recurring in my head. gah. is it true? the mere thought scares me. what if i do want you too badly now, what should i do?! i don’t want to lose you! X.x

this piece of advice i stumbled upon did not help as it agitated me more, adding up to the anxiety and insecurity i’m currently getting fed up with.

what to do? words are just words and they seem not to work to reassure me of anything. i hate thinking too much and feeling like this. it’s not healthy.

more so, one unhealthy, guilty and somewhat pleasurable act i’ve recently done is stalking. and it lead me to no good. sometimes, its just best not to know anything.

lesson learned: do not revisit old blogs. T.T